Everyday struggle

As everyday, i saw her in school, my feelings wasn't bored of suffering as i still feel the pain and the heartache... But today was alittle weird, she looks as if something is bothering her, i was curious and i really-really feel like it to ask her, but what if its because she's tired thats why she looks like this... Or maybe her current boyfriend is treating her badly? I'm going to screw him up if he made her cry... So since i missed her, I've found something stupid enough to do that is writing a dairy of everyday without her, its been 394 days since we broke up... Soon it'll be the trial, and her birthday is near... I wonder if she will feel awkward if i message her wishing her happy 17th birthday?.. I wish i could wish her the same way i used to... To my friends that viewed this blog please do not tell this out to anyone else unless i say so... To random people, just visit my blog and tell me your story will do... I'll be glad to listen and leave you some comment...

My story...

So here i go again with my story... Hmm... Something about her is that she make me feel so comfortable being myself... Its like i've known her for quite sometime, things never got so smooth with her, if loving her feels so good, my life is prefect... She has a sweet smile, beautiful face, cute character, lovely attitude, funny voice... If any guy found a girl like this, never in your life time let her go, unless she says so... I miss her so much everytime i was having a school holiday... 1 week seems to me a life time long... I remembered the first time being with her after school, thats the first time we're alone, although is not quite a good place to date, but i enjoy every mili-second with her, i was alittle stiff that time, she made my heart beat so hard... I gotto admit i was acting weird that time cause i din't know what to do, my mind was so empty by her smile when i look at her... I took a sit with her, if my heart was weak, i'll faint on the spot( is love this strong? YES IT IS! )... I was quiet cause i was shy and it was a rare thing to have her with me that time... If i could rewind time, i'll like to be with her again...

My first blog...

Hmm... This is my first blog, might not be good, but its for people to share their feelings here... First of, let me tell you my story... Everyone made their mistake in life, most mistake we made, we just let it pass by, but for some mistake we made, cause us to remember and feel its pain for time... This is what happen to me... So this is how it goes, 2 years back, i shifted to this new school, things were normal until i meet her, J... J was just prefect enough for me, considered someone prefect for me to spend the entire love life with, i went for her and started my first step with her, things were prefect with her and i really gotten myself deeply in love, i was so blinded by her love i could slip and fall walking on a smooth platform... She was everything in my life, everyone would say this when their in love, but i'm true to the words i say... Anyway things got raugh later than... but i'll continue next time lol... Do leave me some comments... And dont forget to tell me about yours