Everyday struggle

As everyday, i saw her in school, my feelings wasn't bored of suffering as i still feel the pain and the heartache... But today was alittle weird, she looks as if something is bothering her, i was curious and i really-really feel like it to ask her, but what if its because she's tired thats why she looks like this... Or maybe her current boyfriend is treating her badly? I'm going to screw him up if he made her cry... So since i missed her, I've found something stupid enough to do that is writing a dairy of everyday without her, its been 394 days since we broke up... Soon it'll be the trial, and her birthday is near... I wonder if she will feel awkward if i message her wishing her happy 17th birthday?.. I wish i could wish her the same way i used to... To my friends that viewed this blog please do not tell this out to anyone else unless i say so... To random people, just visit my blog and tell me your story will do... I'll be glad to listen and leave you some comment...