When chaos break loseee....

When the problem starts, i start to get alot of things i dint wish for, example, i dint not start this problem about the list and so on, the list exist so long ago, and nothing happen... So now everyone knows about the list, and i'm the one who's responsible for this? Screw it, i wasnt assign to do this things... And for you guys info, i'm not the hitman, someone else is, and hell yea i dont know who is it... I have another job, not a hitman, so go find those responsible for it, i'm just someone who knows about it, and not allow to question about it... And my problem with those involve in the list is none of my concern either, ask the person who told you about the list, and ask him/her to tell you about the list... Cause i dont even know any sh*ts about it... Anyway, the two names i said out was all my problem, i've put them in the list for more than a year, nothing happen to them either, so why so piss-off?..

Living without anyone...

LOL sorry for my last blog, to much spelling and grammer error... Was rushing... Hmmph... Living without anyone special in my life is just... Lifeless... I cant believe i'm single for 4 months, new record... So how's life for me?... Well... Let's just say it kinda sucks... Hoping for something special to happen, waiting for new people to introduce themself, waiting for time to fly basicly.... So hows life for everyone else? I know you're enjoying life more than me alot... So let's start a topic here shall we? What does it takes to make a girl like a guy? From what i know, the better the looks, the more she likes it... But I think its very useless liking a guy base off his face... Remember this, beauty on the outside dont last long, beauty from the inside last forever... I know the way I define giving other people chances maybe alittle stupid, but if you never know a person, u never know if its meant for you... Somehow other people think differently... Most people think you can date a friend than dating a someone you prefer to know... It all depends on how you find the perfect person, the way i find it its through relationships... But if the way other people find it, its mostly through friendship... Anyway, i cant talk much as i'm still inexperience in all this... I might be a love doctor in the future! LOL... Anyway i'll talk till here... Just to let anyone reading this know, i'm not angry towards you, just feeling alittle let down...

Shit happens

So all shits happen now, i said myself personally to leave me alone till the exam is over, then do what the f*** you guys want, so hard to make you guys listen

Something about the message...

I've receive a message from E last night, and i was wondering that have she had a long relationship before?..Cause, NO offence but... To know someone long enough to start a relation its a very weird way to start off one relation... I'm not trying to fight back for you but to start a relationship means to understand the person truthfully and in a better point of view other than understanding him/her during friends, unless best friends, best of friends are similar as couple, but the difference is that both of them don't have the feelings for each other, but tend to care and be the one, your friend really needs by anytime, trust and care are strong between best friend... But to start a relationship with someone else means to give a chance for both the couples to love and care for each other... Trust is the thing a relationship needs to build up for, knowing each other differently and more detail is during the relationship time, and if all of those don't work out, you guys can just break up and go other way... I always hear my friends say I'm a ladies men... I'm not sure what it exactly means, but I'm sure being a ladies men means to lose more relationship with someone you want to start with... So how exactly a relationship goes till the end?.. Well simple, when both couple get married and live till the very end of their life with the person they both gave chance too... Ask any senior and people that read this advice will find it true and use full...

Looking for a new beginning

Happy to say that i let her go, My feelings towards her have just change... I really was happy about it... But my feelings din't leave just like that, there was someone else that made me lose my feelings towards her... Well... She din't do much for me to let her go... But it was her that made me let J go... So there, its her E... actually if you're reading dont worry, i wont tell it out to anyone else... E, to be honest, if i'm not the kind of guy that we can actually start a relation, just tell me... Please dont give me false hope... I've just recover from a broken heart... Breaking it again is going to leave me a scar... So what is it that will let us start off?.. Hmmm... I wish i wasn't so desperate for a relation... But i am... I need someone in my life... Family is one i already have, friends is also what i already have... Just you is what i remain of... But dont worry, i wont burden you anymore, i'll look, i'll find someone else even if this heart has to force its way... A sad love life i'm having to go through this age...

Everyday struggle

As everyday, i saw her in school, my feelings wasn't bored of suffering as i still feel the pain and the heartache... But today was alittle weird, she looks as if something is bothering her, i was curious and i really-really feel like it to ask her, but what if its because she's tired thats why she looks like this... Or maybe her current boyfriend is treating her badly? I'm going to screw him up if he made her cry... So since i missed her, I've found something stupid enough to do that is writing a dairy of everyday without her, its been 394 days since we broke up... Soon it'll be the trial, and her birthday is near... I wonder if she will feel awkward if i message her wishing her happy 17th birthday?.. I wish i could wish her the same way i used to... To my friends that viewed this blog please do not tell this out to anyone else unless i say so... To random people, just visit my blog and tell me your story will do... I'll be glad to listen and leave you some comment...

My story...

So here i go again with my story... Hmm... Something about her is that she make me feel so comfortable being myself... Its like i've known her for quite sometime, things never got so smooth with her, if loving her feels so good, my life is prefect... She has a sweet smile, beautiful face, cute character, lovely attitude, funny voice... If any guy found a girl like this, never in your life time let her go, unless she says so... I miss her so much everytime i was having a school holiday... 1 week seems to me a life time long... I remembered the first time being with her after school, thats the first time we're alone, although is not quite a good place to date, but i enjoy every mili-second with her, i was alittle stiff that time, she made my heart beat so hard... I gotto admit i was acting weird that time cause i din't know what to do, my mind was so empty by her smile when i look at her... I took a sit with her, if my heart was weak, i'll faint on the spot( is love this strong? YES IT IS! )... I was quiet cause i was shy and it was a rare thing to have her with me that time... If i could rewind time, i'll like to be with her again...

My first blog...

Hmm... This is my first blog, might not be good, but its for people to share their feelings here... First of, let me tell you my story... Everyone made their mistake in life, most mistake we made, we just let it pass by, but for some mistake we made, cause us to remember and feel its pain for time... This is what happen to me... So this is how it goes, 2 years back, i shifted to this new school, things were normal until i meet her, J... J was just prefect enough for me, considered someone prefect for me to spend the entire love life with, i went for her and started my first step with her, things were prefect with her and i really gotten myself deeply in love, i was so blinded by her love i could slip and fall walking on a smooth platform... She was everything in my life, everyone would say this when their in love, but i'm true to the words i say... Anyway things got raugh later than... but i'll continue next time lol... Do leave me some comments... And dont forget to tell me about yours